Wednesday, June 27, 2007 1:33 PM
Well its a whirlwind as always.
Went to a memorial party for a person who was a force of nature in LA and every year he had a summer solstice party. When I first moved to LA I really did not get the lay of the land and not being in the Biz or having any money as an intern there were definite moments when I really felt left out of the pack. Chris was for many years a leader of the pack and he always had a big party where all could come but "honey ya gotta be on the list". And he would call me multiple times just to check in and make sure I RSVP'd. It was a great gesture and I had a grand time.
Well flash forward and Chris has passed away and two of his friends in his honor threw his summer solstice party with the same person who ran his list for years. A slide show of Chris and his sayings "Honey I grind slow..but I grind fine" was showing and the old gang was there. I am a little behind them in years but to hear the stories of past times was sobering and heartening.
Its a reminder to me that when we go all that is ever ever going to be left is our energy that lives on in others. Coin, house, car, stuff will all dissolve.
So when people always look at me and wonder why I don't stop sometimes I guess there is too much to experience and too much to do.
SO its Russian River for a week next week and San Diego Pride later. expect lots of photos.
Miami, New York, China (?), Beach at Oxnard (you know who you are), NY, Vegas on the list.q
Wednesday, June 20, 2007 12:08 PM
Kids of all Shapes and sizes.
Paramount Party. Thanks to Stacy and Johnny for taking great care of me and my friends.
Beach day with the Kids. They are Five. I am bio- Daddy they live with Mommy and Momma. Its fun and ever changing.
Saturday, June 16, 2007 8:33 AM
Candlelight Vigil
Rest Stop 4 Brilliance.
Tired after 500 miles. In Santa Baraba
Back out of the Saddle again. The Aids LifeCycle cam e and went in a blur...a blur. It was such such such an experience. To be surrounded by kind, driven, achieving individuals for a week was amazing. The energy was the best.
Its not easy for a lot of people but they dig down deep and get through it or as much as they can. I meet this pair of 50 something women. A little out of shape but damnit they got in their bikes rode hard as far as they could and they called themselves "Team Ride Another Day." meaning keep healthy and uninjured to get back on the bike.
So many memories. New friends and reconnecting with old friends. Very glad to put some residual last year weird ride vibes to bed with a really nice guy. First time doing it where I was not in a full on relationship. Also an anniversary of sorts for my last relationship so that was intersecting. You are meeting a lot guys and get to spend a lot of time talking biking etc but are so so so tired, fried and dehydrated not to mention "not pretty" in certain areas that its really a flirt/slap/giggle mess until you can meet up after the rides over.
And during all the over stimulation that comes with the ride there comes those moments when you are on a bike fighting cross winds in the middle of farmland you are cold from the spray of water, tired, both your bottles are low, your ass is killing you and even tough you are pushing hard your feel like you are slowing down and you are focused. All of whatever you were obsessing over just melts away and I was deeply happy. I cried a lot on this ride. Some was silly self pity over the past year, some was for my friends, some for people I did not know but who I knew needed this ride. I would pass POS pedalers and just be amazed.
WAS going to Hawaii this weekend and WAS looking forward to it and DID have great plans with two great guys BUT FATHERS day is here and the kids are in town. I did not get this in the memo. Actually now that they are five (twins living with lesbian moms I am "dada") its really great to spend time with them so its a full on beach picnic fathers day.
Friday, June 1, 2007 8:36 AM
This is a riders ass..actually mine. As Donald puts in I am back in my booty trunks.
This ass is biking down the California Cost on the AidsLifeCycle 6.
Hit the site for updates. SEND ME LOVE MESSAGES. We can read them online and its so depressing not to get mail :(
Wednesday, May 30, 2007 1:04 PM
Ok it was amazing weekend. Montecito and Malibu for some relaxation and meeting Mike Tyson at a malibu barbi party (imagine lohans running around on high heels in the grass yard on a cliff in Malibu. I was so hoping for a "tragic accident".) was the surreal. No photos. trust me your better off. Lots of funny industry people. I settled for the vodka cranberries and then Laguna.
It was one ridiculous beach house to the next BUT everyone I met were the nicest and most down to earth people. I have to say attitude took a vacation.
Friday, May 25, 2007 10:34 AM
STOLI Hotel. Brilliant Idea. Take over a warehouse space. Make it sharp and serve unlimited supplies of vodka. We had a good time. again and again.
Yes I have NEVER been gayer than with Mr. Gay LA, Orange County and Beaver Creek
(yes) in the car. Hilarious in the Long Beach Pride. (who is the nicest of nice
guys) LB Pride has such an honesty and great energy to it. The hispanic/black
quotient is WAY higher than LA's and lots of families. We had fun. lots of fun.
To say its been a little busy.....cruise, houseguests, summer, Long Beach Pride, Work, New Jobs, Old Jobs, New Friends, keeping my head in order, trying to learn more and grow...it all takes time and energy and
I
AM
A
LITTLE
TIRED.
Monday, May 14, 2007 1:49 AM
yes I can live in my recent past.
What a weekend. I need break. really.
thanks to Kaleb for the dining room redo
thanks to craig, doug, zac, juan, etc for the getting me out of my head duty
I am giving a lecture in the AM. then a training ride. The ASS gain.....its embarrassing. I feel J-lo's pain but none of the monetary gain.
Saturday, May 12, 2007 6:42 PM
Subject to Change
My children turned five.
I had the "run into".
Two events one lens. Time/Distance.
Ask James.
Know your position in space.
Wednesday, May 9, 2007 3:38 AM
nothing
like white sheets and a sunny morning. And online ordering.
Have been doing some good rides but my fav and close ride is now gone. Seems that Griffith Park has decided to oh.....burn.
Had the best catch up dinner and watched the flames creep over the hill from their kitchen. The fire was so great that we could see it miles away.
Went out to share in a 21st bday. Lordy lordy. He is a sweetheart so it was fun to see.
And speaking of the kids. My line to my friends is that I am building a bridge in front of my house. (ref:Gay dating:younger/older: troll) It seems that for some reason the under 30 crowd has taken a hankering for the kid. I am age appropriate usually meaning that my interest in people has always stayed with my age peer group. I see the attraction to younger people because to me they have the possible all about them. Nothings set in stone there is so much to do and that is attractive. BUT there are certain lessons that can only come with time and experience and hopefully not too much pain. I have learned that I need just to let the other person BE themselves and develop as they will and revel in their unique energy.
Tuesday, May 8, 2007 4:50 PM
Monday, May 7, 2007 10:54 AM
A whirlwind weekend. Lordy. First dinner and drinks at 11 a very good restaurant which breaks my longstanding belief that there are no good gay restaurants here.
Then two house parties which turned out to be literally next door to each other. literally. We knew both groups so it was back and forth for a while. Lots o fun.
Then a fun fun pool party for dear Roger who is an amazing artist. Link
to follow. So frolic there met some sweet boys and the ever cute Adam who I
finally got to talk to for longer than three seconds. Then a fun housewarming
party then a bday for a dear colleague then a drive by at Here and home for
fire and going through the memories from the weekend.
Thursday, May 3, 2007 1:32 PM
A cordless blender is always a must.
The nicest sexiest boys in Hawaii. I almost cashed my ticket in. Really. No
REALLY.
The original Annie and amazing
singer Andrea
McArdle
Disco Days
yeah gay cruise. of course a week of drinking and eating does nothing for the bod but with the Aids Lifecycle coming up it was the perfect time for this hedonism.
It was a week to get over some past crap, met some new people and just honestly have a good time be treated like a great friend, good person, piece of ass (that was courtesy of the roaming couples who were fun to tease a little) and general bon vivant.
Wednesday, May 2, 2007 10:40 AM
Admit the Love
Just back from week in Hawaii. Higher functions offline. more to follow.
I can only say that it was just what I needed in so many ways. And no I did not meet the man of my dreams etc just had great great times. Well actually met the men of my dreams and they are a great couple. They are yet another example of what's possible when two people who really love each other and communicate that in a way that each can actually hear.
I am pretty sure I have not done this adequately in the past.
More to follow but for now the new motto is "Admit the love" in every sense of the words. I had a hard time admitting my feelings towards people esp. when it was so intense so the safe route would be sublimation and acting out. So much time and potential wasted.
and yes many many pics to follow.